Felicia Jiamei Lau

i'm overboard.

... and i need your love.

CHINESE Os IS OVERRRR :D WAHAHAHA. HAPPY.

I sneak in.

我可以试试看用华文来打着整个 blog post. 可是，有一些字我还是不知道怎么翻译成华文，比如刚才那个 blog post 我不知道怎么翻译。好，然我现在开始讲我原本要说的东西。

我今天放学过后自己去 Compass Point 买吉他的 capo! 我真的很高兴因为我终于有了我很想要得东西! 现在，我可以用正确的音准来弹我的 Taylor Swift 的歌了!  我很高兴到我把自己所弹的歌都给录了下来! :P 还不错啦! 不会太难听 :P 我也终于可以用正确的音准来弹其他的歌了! 可是我不应该花这样多时间来完我的吉他，我也用该花多一点时间来复习我的华文... 真的是很 sian ): 星期一就是会考了! 要多多加油哦! 我也希望我可以靠到至少一个 B3! 当然，我希望可以靠到 A1 ~ 不是不可能的. 只是看我愿不愿意在这个周末花多一点时间来练习我的理解问答和综合填空等等.. 我也许要把我的期望放在口试上，可是口试是另外一个分数 ): 我看，最好还是多联系一点吧...

Black Star

All I did these few days is.. 华文. 我看，我会做到我很 sian!

Me, the OTHER side! (:

Okay, I might be the goody good girl. (okay, maybe not.) But i like taylor swift's all princess, fairytale stuff. The other side of me? I wish to be like Avril Lavigne. The oh-so-hot girl! HAHA. that's the more paikia side of me! :P I like her hair, it's awesome. Green streaks. A lil' extreme.. LOL but heck? I'll make sure i have pink streaks when i go into poly! :D anyway, here's her style that I like about! This is Smile.

And also... What the hell !

Her style, I LIKE(:

Mirror mirror on the wall..

I don't know what's with the thing about other people being you're mirror. Okay, I can say sometimes you need people to like.. tell you what you've been like and what they really think about you. But also, I think that people shouldn't be overly affected by people's comments about you. If people say that you're a filrt, so what? You yourself know why you talk to that person. If people say you're extra, probably in this case you are. Still, I think that people will fit into the world somehow, in a way or another. God sure has a place for you in this world. 

People's expectation of different thing (or people/friends) are different, and one cannot try to change himself/herself for different situation because all will be seen through one day. I have to say, even myself. I have 5 different way of presenting myself. Generally almost everyone have this 5:

!) You in school.
2) You at home.
3) You alone.
4) You with friends.
5) You with the person you like.

5 different sides of a person. it's pretty amazing how people change in the middle of these eh? And one day, your friends will end up at your house and that's when one of the side will be seen through. I really don't have much to say about this. Cause this isn't exactly a case of split personality, it's just what you deem as the appropriate behavious for the different situation. Okay, maybe there's no no such thing as appropriate behaviour in the 'You with friends' part, cause people plainly go rubbish and go crazy :x

There's always a problem with me and all my 'human mirrors' in life. Cause the point is that I do not trust people totally easily, and I've yet to find anyone that i can trust totally about everything. Point is also, oneself can choose to believe or not to believe in that one's 'human mirror' says. People can tell you that you're ugly, you can choose to believe it. And once you have that in your mind, you'll forever be ugly no matter what you say. It's an internal conflict between oneself. scary? or sometimes you can plainly just ignore what your 'human mirror' says and continue to live your life the way you do it :) ultimately, you gotta find someone that you can really trust with all you heart to be your 'human mirror'.

I always believe that I know myself best. For example, like that time teacher X told me to look up because she thinks that I'm not paying attention, I'll just tell her straight in her face "but i'm listening." and i'll leave it up to her if she wants to believe me or not, because ultimately, I can answer her questions if she ask me :) so that's the main point. It doesn't matter what the person say, if the person says that you're a filrt, you know inside that you're just being a good friend, continue to be who you are :D treat the person who says that you're a filrt with even more love. it's up to the person to decide if you're filrting or you're just plainly being a friend. because ultimately, when the person needs you, you'll be there :)
and that's what friends are for.

They are the reason why I smile, why I laugh. At the same time, they are the reason why I cry. Don't you think that friends are the most awesome bunch of people God has ever placed in your life? I have a bunch of awesome friends :D awesome people. Thank God for them :)

Multiplication.

Cell group multiplied! (: well, happy stuff and sad stuff. Of course, my bond with this N421 is definately loads closer than N349. I Maybe it's me or just some other stuff. Ohwell. Happy that church is getting bigger, and sad that i'm not with the other half anymore. The hard point of it all - Stepping out of comfort zone. Some of my closer friends are on the other side, but obviously i see a super lively cell group ahead with wanxin and nicole and rachel! Heeee~

But that leaves me the only Methodist School girl! Hahahah, ohgosh. They are all IJs siaaa! :O gotta admit, this seperation with some of the members are hard. But i think that's when i grow more bah? Can depend less on certain people and take charge of something? (: probably. Well, what lies ahead, God knows. I put my trust in Him. Of course, as human i cannot stop worrying/feeling sad! Lalalala. I need to get over this thing again! This time, it's harder!