Posts for May 16th 2011
Mirror mirror on the wall..
I don't know what's with the thing about other people being you're mirror. Okay, I can say sometimes you need people to like.. tell you what you've been like and what they really think about you. But also, I think that people shouldn't be overly affected by people's comments about you. If people say that you're a filrt, so what? You yourself know why you talk to that person. If people say you're extra, probably in this case you are. Still, I think that people will fit into the world somehow, in a way or another. God sure has a place for you in this world.
People's expectation of different thing (or people/friends) are different, and one cannot try to change himself/herself for different situation because all will be seen through one day. I have to say, even myself. I have 5 different way of presenting myself. Generally almost everyone have this 5:
!) You in school.
2) You at home.
3) You alone.
4) You with friends.
5) You with the person you like.
5 different sides of a person. it's pretty amazing how people change in the middle of these eh? And one day, your friends will end up at your house and that's when one of the side will be seen through. I really don't have much to say about this. Cause this isn't exactly a case of split personality, it's just what you deem as the appropriate behavious for the different situation. Okay, maybe there's no no such thing as appropriate behaviour in the 'You with friends' part, cause people plainly go rubbish and go crazy :x
There's always a problem with me and all my 'human mirrors' in life. Cause the point is that I do not trust people totally easily, and I've yet to find anyone that i can trust totally about everything. Point is also, oneself can choose to believe or not to believe in that one's 'human mirror' says. People can tell you that you're ugly, you can choose to believe it. And once you have that in your mind, you'll forever be ugly no matter what you say. It's an internal conflict between oneself. scary? or sometimes you can plainly just ignore what your 'human mirror' says and continue to live your life the way you do it :) ultimately, you gotta find someone that you can really trust with all you heart to be your 'human mirror'.
I always believe that I know myself best. For example, like that time teacher X told me to look up because she thinks that I'm not paying attention, I'll just tell her straight in her face "but i'm listening." and i'll leave it up to her if she wants to believe me or not, because ultimately, I can answer her questions if she ask me :) so that's the main point. It doesn't matter what the person say, if the person says that you're a filrt, you know inside that you're just being a good friend, continue to be who you are :D treat the person who says that you're a filrt with even more love. it's up to the person to decide if you're filrting or you're just plainly being a friend. because ultimately, when the person needs you, you'll be there :)
and that's what friends are for.
They are the reason why I smile, why I laugh. At the same time, they are the reason why I cry. Don't you think that friends are the most awesome bunch of people God has ever placed in your life? I have a bunch of awesome friends :D awesome people. Thank God for them :)
