Felicia Jiamei Lau

Prelims (1)

Today had maths P1 and SS. my SS I really don't know what I was doing for SBQ, SEQ was okay. SBQ I don't even understand the freaking source. I don't get what it is trying to say ): boohoo... today is mainly exams. actually the next few days also exam.. hais ): and Chinese Os oral is on 5th July. wooping fast can... anyway, today came back home w stomache, really pain. till my lips turned pale. then followed by diarrhoea, gah. still, thank God that I studied most of geog already.. POA is pretty simple so I should be able to do it. probably. I don't know how things will turn out without Ms Han and with grace quek -.- I want Veena Lee be my teacher again, I mean since she is back in school right? (--,) I want Veena Lee, don't want grace quek lah. I need to rest a little. so that's just a quick post from my iPhone. (; have an awesome week ahead everyone.

It's too late to apologise..

Or is it not? I really don't know. Okay generally, nobody likes to apologise, that one common thing that everyone agrees to. What more apologise for something you didn't do. Sometimes, I really think that an apology is ALWAYS late. Unless before that thing hapend and the person goes like "okay, i'm sorry if
okay.." besides that, there's not other exception. sometimes, apology is late, it's really too late. but what about forgiving? It's never too late to forgive right? but still, it's not my choice to choose to forgive or not. I've already forgiven the person that made me angry.

I rather people hate me than people to be disappointed in me. The reason is pretty simple, because if people are angry at or disappointed in me, obviously i'm the one that did something wrong, but if people hate me, i have no idea why, unless i agree to them that i am bad. and really, i hate to have someone disappointed in me. and it was just yesterday and today that I disappointed people, not because of what I did. but because of some decisions that is not made by me. i had to apologise for all these, it feels like i've made a promise and i broke it, and it's like i cant help but to break it. what else sucks more? i'm really sad if the people are disapointed in me.

please, don't be angry at me..

You belong with meeee...

Okay, today basically studied :D i think my brain need a break. so yeah, break from all the thoughts that make my heart pound, negative thoughts and everything. Yeah, I gotta trust in God that everything will work out fine, and that He has greater and better plans for me. I need to smile more :D and i mean smile from the heart, not on the surface.

And i've been asked to do some really cool stuff.. secret. HAHAHA. anyway, tomorrow will be filming for Your Best Shot video :D goodluck to me and nicole mans! Jo was asking me where is the video! :x oops! gonna upload to Youtube tomorrow and link it to Facebook (: yay. so, basically life is the same... or maybe not. I just don't want it to go any more comlicated from now :) and for now, it's alright. :)

Time flies as fast as areoplane

I really thinkt that time really past like ZOOM. totally mans. Like i remember sec 1 i was like still new to church, and keep getting bullied during class and all (okay, not that it don't happend now but last time was worst), and all the fun projects that i did together with my friends for lit and everything :D it was really fun and slack. HAHA, but it is really not the best year. Well, the best would be sec 2.. I remember me and clique would like just go to Just Acia at dhoby like once every week,not we don't even go there anymore! HAHA, really mans. I also remember sec 2 was like forever making fun of Tessa Tan and how much i used to hate her! HAHAH :x and sec 2 was like Ms Gan as math teacher and forever copying maths homework answers from vienna :P hehehehe, and also the time when people start to look at guys as more than friends.. and all. the most eventful year of all. and I remember the whole class the joy when we hear from Mrs Teo like "everyone in this class made it to sec 3" HAHAHA. fun fun duper fun year :D

then sec 3 was the year that me and the reat of the clique sort of split into different class.. and the new subjects.. oh my gosh. okay, sec 3 one of the toughest year, but still one of the most HECK CARE year ever. HAHA. still, cannot be compared to this year. mondays forever 4.30 off school... sian to the max ): and esp this coming term 3. last term in PL, but the most horrible. i can't wait to leave PL :x honestly! hahaha!

Sunny Sunday :B

Okay, today not exactly that SUNNY, but it's a happy day for me. I stayed indoor the whole day. Went for guitar class with jiayong! and brother Poh lead the class! he's super funny!! HAHAHAH! and learnt a few new chords and yeah :) stumming style and all! quite productive! after that had long chats with dorothy and jiayong at macs! and i know their story of like how they know each other and stuff :B hehehehe. Then they left and i stay there to study geog! :> can remember my facts also! yay me! so productive (: i likey! (Y)

then took mrt to lakeside meet jonathan and we walked to the CC for dance.. like hard to catch up! esp Sean's style is not like the ones i usually learnt ._. so yeah. but i consider myself not bad, i pushed myself. :) jiayou more bah! heh! it was fun. had some laugh and all (: then i went homeee. cant feel my legs now ): hahahaha i wonder how the NRA people survive sia!! they train so hard leh. and today's class did split that's why i end up like this! HAH!

tmr gonna go nicole's hse practice guitar again! IT IS A NEWWWW DAY!! jiayou for everything i do, God help me :) gimme strength! and of course, do a bit more geog toooo! :D

It's friday, friday!

Okay, i didn't really bother to update this blog, cuz it is not for spamming, but more like the highlights of my week/day/life/moment/hour/season.. ect. you get what i'm trying to say. for now, i gotta make a decision if i should go to TJ every sunday for Sean's cheoro. One item won't harm. But still, it's far. and nobody say i can't study while omw there.. i dont know lah, my mom has allowed me, now it's my choice.. and really, why he sms me to ask me this? hahaha, feels weird. heck. anyway, maybe i can talk a little bit about dance and me!

4 types of dance that I want to learn:

1) Hip Hop.

It's hip, that's why. And I'm already learning and have already learnt it for the past 3.5 years.

2) Waltz.

It's a very beautiful dance, to me. It's really graceful and sweet. I think I started liking waltx ever since I watch High School Musical 3's Can I Have This Dance. Troy and Gabriella is just so.. beautiful. together. Yeap.

3) Ballroom.

Same reason as waltz. Refer to above.

4) Contemp

I like the movements and how feelings are being expressed in this dance, I think it's kind of more emotional than hiphop, I guess? HAHA

Yeap, and that's about all. I just typed everything with my iphone, ohwow.

Monday Morning, No Monday Blues.

oh, did i mention that Jiayong doesn't know what we gonna do for Emerge competition? :D HAHAHA! he kept asking me and i just don't wanna say :B heeeheee! Going to Nicole's house to practice today! Happy happy! Actually more of excited lah :D lol. I mean even if we didn't win, it's still fun :D my YouTube channel gonna be alive again! WHEE. Hahahaha, I've got my old channel that is totally not updated. http://youtube.com/estelicious (: COOL NAME RIGHT! IKR! .__.

okay, this is just a random morning update..

Never thought we'll have the last kiss.